I have to avoid frustration. I have to avoid fear. These emotions accomplish absolutely nothing. But I’m in pain again after going for weeks with very little pain. There’s definitely a reason for it as there is a reason for every challenge that’s ever handed to you. I know what I have to do but that doesn’t make it much easier.

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I’m looking for God in my head.

I’m trying to realize the Self.

The real one, not this 3-D avatar.

It’s not really me, if that helps.

It’s harder to do than to say I have found.

But it’s something my soul is demanding.

They have more faith in me than I do myself.

It’s nice but I can’t stick the landing.

Having a goal is nice but I thought 

I could take my sweet time to get there.

My soul is demanding I do it right now.

I’m in no place to argue. That fair?

It must be, you see, because God makes no mistakes.

And he knows this thing, I can do.

I just have to figure out how to let go.

And not seek approval from you.