Coming to the understanding that my childhood traumas led to the condition I now find myself in
in general in life today is resurfacing resentful feelings I harbored most of my life towards my father. It’s not fair to either him or me. Everything that happens to you is for a reason. It all is part of the journey. If you love the person you are today, and you better, then you have to embrace everything that ever happened to lead you to become that person.

This is really a separate thought but I didn’t want to create a new post.

I didn’t choose a “you are going to be born to parents who will instill in you the proper way to live” journey this time. I could have. You could have too. We didn’t do that. We didn’t incarnate as Amish or some indigenous tribe somewhere still living the way we are all intended to live. I chose this. BECAUSE it would be challenging. My soul thinks way more of my strength than I do. Guess I need to catch up then…