I know it’s what I’m here to do. I know I’m on a divine path to awakening, but I’m miles away from reaching that point. On this spiritual journey I’m on I discovered that people who are taking antipsychotics, can’t properly meditate, and cannot self-realize. That is very deliberate. You will never ever convince me it isn’t. All the forces of the world are trying to keep us from self-realizing. Why? Because it’s supposed to be hard. Because if it were easy there would be no point in doing this!

I’ve been on antipsychotics for 15 years. But I did just recently switch from Geodon, which is such a nightmare to withdraw from that even though I was taking the replacement drug, Seroquel, I felt like I was dying. I felt like I wasn’t even attached to reality at times. It was scary. But Seroquel is EASIER to come off of so I count that as progress! I will never have to withdraw from Geodon ever again and that’s so wonderful to know. I’m making progress, but they are baby steps.

Also the Geodon had absolutely insane side-effects. Sometimes it would give me Akathisia which is the most awful thing I’ve ever endured. You feel like you are about to jump out of your skin and every muscle in your body feels like it’s twitching at the same time. But the Seroquel isn’t without side-effects either. My big toe on my left foot feels like it is broken from involuntary movement that I can’t do anything to stop. Restless Leg Syndrome it says when I look up the side-effects.

Please research these drugs yourself BEFORE you take them! I would never have taken them had I known ANYTHING at all about how difficult they would be to stop taking eventually. And for God’s sake do not let anyone medicate your children!

I can’t say I have regrets. I can’t do that. It’s wasted energy. I can’t change the past. All I can do is be responsible for the present moment. Regret is a sin.

Edit: 8:16 CDT

I just had my entire night made, my lovely, wonderful siblings. I googled what sort of side-effects I could expect going from 100mg of Seroquel to 50mg. Cut it right in half.

There’s all kinds of warnings about underlying conditions returning, but I know they made up my underlying conditions. I’m not bipolar. There’s no such thing. I do not have a “chemical imbalance” in my brain. They completely made that up to profit billions off prescribing us poison! But read this. When I read it I thanked God audibly. This is so wonderful to read.

“Withdrawal Symptoms: Although Seroquel isn’t typically associated with severe withdrawal symptoms, some people report feeling “off” or having mild withdrawal effects like headaches, dizziness, or irritability when reducing their dose.”