The amount of misery I’ve experienced over the past 5 months is unimaginable when I think back on it. And I feel no better today than I did 5 months ago. You get a new liver every 150 days. Your liver can heal really quickly if you stop doing whatever damaged it. Why after 150 days am I no better than I was 5 months ago? I really wish someone could help me. I don’t know what I can do tht I’m not doing. My mom mentioned going to Vanderbilt Hospital. Every time I’ve been to the ER they give me something to make me feel better and send me home and then, of course, the pain comes right back. It’s a nightmare, y’all. I wish I could explain to you. I went to the ER in Nashville desperate for someone to stick a camera down me and FIND OUT WHAT IS GOING ON and they gave me something that made me feel like I was jumping out of my skin. It’s the worst feeling you can imagine. You CANNOT sit still and I had an IV in me so I’m pacing this little section of the waiting room they had me in and screaming “Help!” my poor Mom was there with me and completely helpless. She kept telling them something was wrong. Finally they gave me Benadryl in my IV and that calmed it down but then it came back later right before I left and I needed more. I didn’t feel right for days after that.

So can you understand why I’m now terrified of doctors and the ER specifically?? What do you guys think I should do? I wish there was some way of going to Vanderbilt but avoiding the ER. I doubt that’s possible. I can’t tell you how depressing it is that I’m considering going BACK to an ER. I just can’t explain how much pain I am in at almost all times. It’s unbearable and almost nothing helps.