And it’s impossible to tell based on that alone whether it’s out of devotion, joy, or desperation. Too often it’s the latter. It needs to go to 100% devotion. I will get there. God deserves it already. I’m just still too distracted.

I don’t gossip anymore.
Can’t afford to do it.
That dude who hurt me yesterday?
I hope today he’s blessed.
But I am still a mess!
I told my mom today I have
So far yet still to go!
But look how far I’ve come!
I’m wise enough
To know I’m dumb
And it’s a rule of thumb:
You create your own disasters
And no external savior will ever come.