An amazing thing just happened to me that I needed exactly when it happened and if you believe in divine design you’ll understand that cannot be an accident.

I’ve been living in this apartment for over 3 years I think now. Occasionally I talk to the children who live here. Now, sometimes they initiate that and sometimes I do. It’s very nice.

But my apartment complex has behaved illegally and immorally toward me over the past month. This is a new staff that took over in Feb.

So, I started to try and figure out why this place wants me out, which they do. I have enough evidence to know that.

I haven’t done a damn thing wrong to ANYONE. So, I’m racking my mind trying to think of what I might have ever done, you know?

So, I don’t speak to any neighbors now. I can’t trust them and have good reason to feel that way.

But I’m taking my herbs to my truck bed today to get sun and these 3 kids are standing by a vehicle dressed like they are going swimming. Now I noticed this later. I kept my eyes on my task and didn’t say anything.

I’m putting my plants in my bed and I hear a “Hi!”

This kid remembers me. I think I played Twinkle Twinkle Little Star once on my harmonica on my porch while he was playing under the trees in front of it. He gave me a thumbs up. I think this is that kid.

Because I didn’t speak to him first. He felt comfortable enough in a suburb of a major metropolitan area to say hello to me.

I said, “Hey! Are y’all going swimming?” having noticed how they were dressed at this point.

“Yeah!”

He was excited. I would have been too.

“Good! Y’all have fun!”

“You too!”

“Thanks!”

Now that interaction was between me and that kid. It didn’t have anything to do with anyone else. It was no one else’s business, frankly. He and I knew it was on the level.

I walked up my steps and back into my apartment.

See, that is the Universe, or “God” or however you choose to label the Divine) showing me material evidence that the work I am putting in here on this Earth is not at all in vain. And I don’t have to go by anyone else’s fucking rules on how to live my damn life either. Because I have no ill-intent towards any other living creature.

For two days a few weeks ago I got a jolt of dopamine every time I remembered a spider was on my wall, told him there wasn’t anything in there to eat, got a chopstick and a cup, and he cooperated with me getting him in it and out into a basil plant on my balcony. I’m sure he found a better spot. I bet he will remember that. Or she.

By the way, that second-to-last paragraph is a great example of the ONLY time you’ll see me use an “Oxford Comma.” If you know why, comment.

Love you.

-Benji

Amazing by Aerosmith – Chorus

It’s amazing
With the blink of an eye you finally see the light
It’s amazing
When the moment arrives that you know you’ll be alright
It’s amazing
And I’m sayin’ a prayer for the desperate hearts tonight